Long, long corridor to our room....Kinda eerie....

Nice pose.....

Mmmmmm......

Running away......

Tears are really hard to control. No matter how hard you try...Feel so sad and down today. When everything is not in your path and everything goes wrong, you'll start to think of many things. Tried to look on the bright side, but can't...Why? Why all these? It's really wearing me out...emotinally, mentally...Wish I can run away from all this...Run and never turn back...

What makes my day....

I received a very touching mail from a good friend and it really makes my day. Sypnosis:

"With this job of mine all my friends that I have that means something to me can be counted with 1 hand….and you are one of them. I feel that you have been a part of me even though we never actually spoke or got to know each other. You just grew on me without me ever knowing. Then one day…..you left and that is when I knew just how much you meant to me. I don't have to speak to you or see your face everyday but I know that in my darkest hours…if I am in my desperation…you will shelter me. "

It really touched my heart...I didn't know I play such a big part in someone else's life. Thanks Nash...and you are absolutely right, I will be there if you need me. Take care, my friend.

My dog and cat...

Lucy....

Cool weather, cool trip

Last weekend was up @ Genting to enjoy the cool cool wind. It was cold, just as we wanted. We did not much. Eat, walk, eat, chat, eat, sleep...Hahahah..Yeah, that's how we 'enjoy' a 'relaxing short 'vacation'. Ate a lot of stuff. Pics later coz my cam is with Chai Yee. Great trip gals......

Insatiable- Darren Hayes

When moonlight crawls along the street
Chasing away the summer heat
Footsteps outside somewhere below
The world revolves I let it go
We build our church above this street
We practice love between these sheets
The candy sweetness scent of you
It bathes my skin I'm stained by you
And all I have to do is hold you
There's a racing in my heart
I am barely touching you
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
The moonlight plays upon your skin
A kiss that lingers takes me in
I fall asleep inside of you
There are no words
There's only truth
Breathe in Breathe out
There is no sound
We move together up and down
We levitate our bodies soar
Our feet don't even touch the floor
And nobody knows you like I do
The world doesn't understand
But I grow stronger in your hands
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
We never sleep we're always holdin' hands
Kissin' for hours talkin' makin' plans
I feel like a better man
Just being in the same room
We never sleep there's just so much to do
Too much to say
Can't close my eyes when I'm with you
Insatiable the way I'm loving you
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn the lights down low
Take it off
Let me show
My love for you
Insatiable
Turn me on
Never stop
Wanna taste every drop
My love for you
Insatiable

Mum, you're the best!!!!

Mum, thanks for always being there for me. No words can express how much I love and treasure you. You will forever be the best person in the whole wide world.....HAPPY MOTHER'S DAY....

Somewhere Out There

SOMEWHERE OUT THERE (James Ingram and Linda Ronstadt)

Somewhere out there,
Beneath the pale blue night,
Someone's thinking of me,
And loving me tonight.

Somewhere out there,
Someone's saying a prayer,
Then we'll find one another,
In that big somewhere out there.

And even though I know how very far apart we are,
It helps to think we might be wishing
On the same bright star,
And when the night will start to sing
A lonesome lullaby,
It helps to think we're sleeping underneath the same big sky.

Somewhere out there,
If love can see us through,
Then, we'll be together,
Somewhere out there, out where dreams, come true.

**To that special someone, hope you know that this song is dedicated to you**

Egg song

Hahaahah....cute little egg song.....

http://www.iloveegg.com/swf/egg-song(English)2.swf

House warming...

Went to a colleague's house warming yesterday night. Lovely house. Can't help but feel envy- she has such a nice house and we're about the same age. Beautiful home, cute dog and a loving hubby. So jealous. Anyway, it was a great night. Talking about a house, I did think of owning a house of my own....Just a small one will do....So I can choose whatever colour of paint I want, whichever decorations I want...It will be great. One of my dreams....

Movies, movies.....

These past weeks, I have watched a lot of movies- watching while working at home. Need some entertainment to keep me awake. Among them:

1) Sepet
2) Spirited Away
3) Princess Mononoke
4) Forest gump (again)
5) Taking lives
6) Big Fish
7) Brother Bear
8) Shutter

All are quite worth watching, especially Spirited away and Princess Mononoke- both Japanese animated.

.....

We can never be satisfied of what we have in front of us. There will always be something that keeps telling us that there will be better opportunities out there.
Sometimes you hate yourself for doing the wrong things, but these wrong things are part of your success.
Sometimes you hate yourself for wishing for something you can never have, and regretting why you want it in the first place. Something that will always be someone else's. Why suffer for nothing? Is it worth it? You know that it is definitely not worth it and it's not suppose to happen, but it did.
And memories are all that's left.
We can keep on hoping and hoping. And hoping but deep down inside, we know that it is really impossible for it to happen.

Charity event

Last week, me and my family went to a charity event for the disabled people. There were performaces- all by the disabled people from China. It was amazing how they can do such a great job. The blind pianist, the deaf singer and all the other performers....Truly amazing and entertaining...Even us as a capable person are not able to do such a great job...A great applause to them...

Balloons everywhere....

A strong crowd...

Beutiful lady...

Charity for the disabled...

April gals...

Ethan boy...as cute and adorable as he is...

Hmmm....

Great people....not so nice food thogh...

Our team and Jes and Jael....

Cultural Nite

A couple of weeks ago, attended Cultural Night organised by the company. Had great fun...Some pics for viewing pleasure...

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Say cheese....

Kungfu Masters or Tai Ko Tai?

Great love story

Just finish watching Leung San Pak and Chuk Ying Toi...A great love story...The Chinsese version of Romeo and Juliet. This is the forth time I watched this movie and it never fail to make me cry everytime I watch it, especially the ending. It really makes me wonder, is there a love so great that can really change everything? Even worth dying for?

Anyway, had a great dinner tonight...Steamboat with the gang. Good food + dessert + good friends...

Falling into place now...

Everything seems to be in place now...My job is getting on smoothly...Interesting events everyday...Interesting people...Though I think I'm spending too much time on work...Will have to spend more time with family...and friends...Well, at this point, life is great...

Missing you

It's agonising to miss somebody. It's saddening when you can't be together.

Ups and downs

Life is a rollercoaster. Full of ups and downs. Many things had happened since my last post that I do not know where to begin. Some joyful events, some not so joyful events.

Work wise: Everything seems smooth one day and it can go haywired another day. It's really tough for me. A newbie and have to take so much responsibilities. Maybe I'm not prepared for this role yet. Maybe I need more time. But I can't give up half way. I need to fight back...That's what I have been telling myself everyday. Late nights and early mornings is a norm nowadays. I do not know how long I can take this but I will give my best.

Love life: It's really tough to let him go again today. These few months, I am used to having someone beside me everytime, someone to be my punchbag, someone to finish my food when I can't, someone to go out with every weekend and then have to let him go today and not seeing him for another year. It has been a wonderful 3 months. I hold back my tears today when he left because I know he doesn't want to see me cry. Now, life is back to being without him. It's good to have a long distance relationship as it is really a test on how strong it is but it has been 3 years. It's getting harder and harder to let him go each time.

With CNY and V-day over, I foresee myself busy with work till the end of the year. No more taking leave as I have caused my team to be so stressed today. Too much thing to do. Hopefully they understand.

So, till the next post, my warmest regards to all.

Fun time

Had a fun time Thursday night @ dinner. Venue: IOI mall, Shakey's. Free food is always the best!! Great bunch of people to hang out with. So, to all you leng chais and leng luis, hope you all had fun too....To those who missed out, we'll have a next time, don't worry....

Say cheese

Dessert- always the best

Fun time after work

Langkawi

Beautiful Thursday morning...AirAsia flight delayed for 1 hour. They cancelled the earlier flight and combined it to the later flight due to too little people. Talked to a dear friend whom I missed so much. It's a good start to a good day. When I called home from Langkawi, heard that the whole of KL as well as some other parts of the country had a power failure. So, good day to be out of KL, right? Kinda lazy to elaborate much so will post pictures and meanwhile, here is a summary of the trip....

13th Jan
11.00 am-Took KLIA transit to airport
12.50 pm- Board plane
1.50 pm- Arrival in Langkawi-pick-up waiting @ the airport and sent us to AWANA PORTO MALAI
2.30 pm- Ushered into a boat for island-hoppings

1. Pulau Dayang Bunting (Pregnant Maiden's Lake) (largest lake in Langkawi): Put on a life-jacket and jumped into water. It carries a legend of a fairy princess who married an earthly prince. Her first child died shortly after birth and was buried in the crystal clear water of the lake. She blessed the water so that any childless maiden who bathed in the lake would conceive thereafter. We got our feet 'massaged' by ikan keli. Lots of them.

2. Tanjung Rhu: We did not actually land but stop by the mangrove forest, only nearby it and then our guide tossed chicken skins on the water. Within minutes, lots and lots of eagle swoop down and grabbed the food. Amazing sight. Must be more than 30 eagles circling above us. Cool....

3. Pulau Beras Basah:
White sandy beaches, 'kwai loh' in skimpy bikinis and parachuting are the main highlights here. The whole beach is totaly deserted except us and some 'mat sallehs'. A couple of people went parachuting and i'm very tempted to but chickened out the last minute. What a wuss, right? Ha ha...Anyway, it was an upclose an personal experience with a wild boar...Three of them lingering around the beaches, sniffling my towel...Goddamnit...Went for dip in the cooling water and then started our journey back to Langkawi Island.

6.00pm- Finally got to our hotel and time to relax before our dinner.
8.00pm- Went for dinner @ Seagull restaurant facing the sea. Food is ok. Expensive but the service is good.

14th January
9.00 am- Pick up our car and started our journey. Circled around the same place because we missed some signs to our destinations. Among the places we visited the whole day:

1. Makam Mahsuri
2. Laman Padi
3. Telaga Tujuh - climbed the stairs all the way up to the top. Lots of monkeys at the top and the view is magnificent. They have a trail to hike up to Gunung Mat Chincang, the second highest mountain in Langkawi. Descended halfway and stop by the waterfall.
4. Cable car ride to the top of Gunung Mat Chincang- bird's eye view of Langkawi.
5. Underwater world- too expensive and nothing much interesting. It's not worth the money.
6. Kuah Town - where we visited the Lagenda Park and Dataran Lang.

7.00 pm- Circled around town looking for food but most of the restaurants are really empty and deserted so we decided to eat @ Seagull again. Had desert too and it was nice....

15th January
10.00am- Pool time. Spent two hours in the pool and sunbathing. Got really tanned. We had the pool to ourselves. Cool...
1.00pm- Circled around Pantai Chenang to look @ the worst tsunami -hit place. Pelangi Resort's pool is completely flodded with mud on the day the tsunami hit. Saw many wrecked fisherman's boats and jetboats on shore.
2.00pm- Shopping time. Bought some chocolates and souvenirs. Nothing really cheap here except liquor and cigarrettes.
5.30pm - Air Asia flight delayed again.
7.00pm- Reach KLIA safe and sound.

It was a really quiet in Langkawi since the tsunami. It's good for a relaxing holiday. Not much poeple and you can almost have the sandy beaches to yourself...Definitely an enjoyable trip...**thums up**

Notes: Some of the pics are tilted. No time to rotate it...

View from plane

Sunrise

Seagull restaurant

Lighthouse

Big big bird

Her # 2

Big big fish

Her

Paddy field

Mahsuri's well

Footprints

An eagle in action

This dude can dive and swim

Awana Porto Malai

Orchard Road with lots and lots of people 

View from my room. Was lucky to have stayed in executive lounge with view of the harbour.  

Sunset @ KLIA 

Singapore pics....

I was in Singapore for training back in Novemvber 2004. Was lazy to post pictures till now. Just a couple of pics....

Hair?

About two months ago, I curled my hair and it look like shit. Last weekend, I straighten it and now everybody says I have nice hair... :P. Will post a picture soon. Me and my new hairstyle...He he he...Anyway, I'm off to Langkawi tomorrow. Looking forward to it. Luckily my leave approved. It's quite a critical period in our project but luckily the manager let me go off...Pics of Langkawi coming soon....

Stressed

Arrrgggg!!!! Fell very stressed today. It's hard to be a leader. It hurts when your team members doesn't really listen and respect you. True of what a close colleague said that 'never take up the role if you can't live up to it'. I can go through this. I know I can. I just need some time to prove it. It's a great job and i will not give in just because of a few people. I must be strong......I must earn their respect...
I've been working quite late these couple of weeks. Not quite used to it as previously, in my last job, I leave on time. But I guess it's ok since we have OT to claim...Muahahaha.....
Thanks to those who have been nice and given me support. And guys...I'm not a fast driver so stop teasing me.....

Goodbye 2004

A thousand opologies coz I didn't update these few weeks. Been busy and lazy...he h ehe...

Wow...What a year it was!!!! Yes, 2004 has been an eventful year. For me, the greatest achievement for 2004 is landing myself a great job which I am enjoying now.....:P. With lots of travelling, spending time with friends and family, polishing up my driving skills, spending a lot money on my hair....2004 has been a year of self improvement. Looking forward to 2005 and it will be a even greater year....I did not make any resolution this year....Why? Because i always never been able to keep up to it. So I'll leave this year alone and just do my best and most importantly....enjoy myself....

My heart goes out to the tsunami 2612 tragedy. Indeed a sad ending to this year....

Anyway, Happy New Year!!!!!

Beautiful Saturday

It was a beautiful morning. Woke up early, do all the normal weekends chores and then quickly get ready for a day of......SHOPPING!!! Yes, have to shop for Christmas presents. And our (me and Derek) destination is IKEA->IKANO->Curve and 1U. Have to get presents for my sis and bro-in-law,Aunty Elaine and Uncle Chong, Kenneth, James and m parents. I went to his house and hang out there for a while before going off to our first place IKEA. It's still early so there's not much people/cars. Lots of empty parking spaces but still people like to park at places where it's clearly written 'No Parking'. Sigh...just for their conveniences. Bought half of the gifts here @ IKEA. We had lunch here. Expensive meatballs and Swedish sausages. The Curve has nothing much in it as it's still new. Then went over to 1U and bought the rest of the gifts. It was so jam- packed that we had to park @ the rooftop. After completing our mission, we went back to his place for some rest and then went out again to catch a movie- Ocean's Twelve. Good movie because it has Brad Pitt in it.....he he he...Grab some burgers @ McD before heading home....That's a great Saturday spent. Wish I have more days during the weekends. 2 days is certainly not enough.....Don't you agree?

Things we do...

Sometimes we do things eventhough we know it's totally wrong and illegal. Things that are spontaneous, dangerous, fun and risky. Things that can jeopardize us, our relationships or career...Yet, despite all that, we still do it. Yes, just admit it....Bet all of you have done something that you can't share with anybody else except your partner-in-crime (if there's any). It's totally cool to do something outrageous once in a while. Quoting one of my close friend, 'We need to be rebellious sometimes. Break the rules, break free.' So, do not worry too much if you've done something illegal, just be smart enough to cover the trail....he he he....

Ooooppsss....

Oopppsss....Typo in one of the blog entry's subject. Instead of Raya 2005, it should be Raya 2004....

Bukit Merah

Had a trip to Bukit Merah Laketown resort on Saturday. Started our journey around 730 am and reaching there 1130 am. Exactly four hours, as planned. The Palm View apartment is small. Not really comfy and definitely not recommended. It was not a good room also as we had noisy neighbors who slept late at night and woke up early in the morning. Well, the first day we went to Ecopark and Orang Utan Island. Had lots of fun. I got up close with orang utan and had my pic taken with a snake. Food there is expensive and it totally sucks. Second day, went to waterpark which is so small. But it’s suitable for people like me who doesn’t know how to swim as most of the water level is below 1.5m. Had rashes on both my arms again (just like when I went to Sg Bil) and I found the source of this- my sunblock lotion. I’m allergic to it. But the first time I used it (during the Pangkor trip a year ago) was ok. Hmmm…..maybe kept it for too long….Anyway, RM 100 per pax is worth the trip, minus the crappy food and accommodation.

Me and Mike 

The lake 

Baby orang utan-Eliyas 

Raya 2005

It’s a tradition that every year we go to Mai’s house for Raya. This year is no exception. Most of us reached around 8pm on Friday night and immediately started munching on various types of kuih/ biscuit while waiting for the main course. It was a fun night with good food and lots of laughter. Thanks Mai and minta maaf for making a mess with all the bits and pieces of kuih on your carpet….he he he….

Enjoying the food.... 

Candid shots are the best... 

Busy busy busy

It's been a while since I update this blog. Have been quite busy lately. I changed job again! No surprise, I guess. Have been with 3 companies since leaving ALSTOM and finally I think I've found one that I like. I'm with IBM now in Cyberjaya. IT job and the environment is good although a bit too far from home. Travelling alone is so boring.....
I was in Singapore last week for training. It's a great exposure as I went there alone-my another colleague went and came back on another day. Staying alone in the hotel is errr....ok....I slept with the radio on all night though….Colleagues there are very nice and friendly. Brought us around and introduce great places to eat and hang out. Not that ‘kiasu’, it seems. Had a nice trip and experience.
And then, every weekend since he came back, I was out most of the time. Traveling here and there to hang out and makan. Arrrggghhh…I going to get fat…..Going off to Bukit Merah this Saturday. Sigh….my mum is mumbling that I do not spend much time at home. So, will definitely update more when i have time.

Phew.....

It all started last Thursday. Body temperature very unstable, shivering all day in the office, fingers numb from the coldness...Tempted to take MC but did not because I was on EL on Wednesday. Had a high fever when i went to the doc that evening. Even the doc and nurse was surprised that i did not consult them earlier. It was such a suffering experince. Doc said to rest for 2 days and come back to do a check up for dengue. And the following few days was terrible. Fever on and off and sometimes feel so down i cried a few times to my mum. Up till today, I still feel a bit woozy due to the medicine and I've actually lost quite some weight due to lost of appetite.
Those few days made me realise that health is very very very important. Not only me, myself sufferring, I've put my family through it especially my mum. She's the one who wakes up a few times at night for my medication. She's the one who put cold towel on my head when my fever is high, she's by my side all the while. I'll never want to put her through all that again. I also realise tha love and TLC is what I needed most through those few days. Thanks mum for being there for me. You're the one who stood by me through good and bad and i promise to treasure every moment with you and our family.