Living it...

My legs are still aching and I've made a mistake wearing high heels today. I thought that it will be alright as they are not as painful as yesterday. But going down the stairs just now proved me wrong! I am walking like an old woman down the stairs. My mum jokingly says that I always torture myself by going hiking or doing the trailblazer and return home with muscles ache. But it is the feeling of accomplishment and satisfaction that made it all worthwhile.

Sometimes, I feel that life is too short to be wasting it. Like now, sitting in the office, with nothing much to do. I am very tempted to skip the rest of the day and do something meaningful.

A friend wrote in her blog that she thinks she is thinking too much, too many maybes, too many what ifs and what could have been...I do that too. I bet most of us do. Sometimes, I wanted to do some things but I keep procrastinating and giving myself excuses, in the end, the opportunity is not there anymore. So, take chances. Do what you feel is impossible. But of course, we need planning. Taking it step by step will help us see if we are on the right track.

Since a year or two back, I have been occupying my weekends with lots of activities. I was afraid previously. Afraid to be alone and afraid to stay at home during the weekends as those are the times when memories will come back and haunt me. Thus, I filled my weekends with activities. Now, my weekends are still packed but not because of that 'alone' feeling anymore. Now, it's purely because I want to make full use of my time. You only live once so why want to waste it?But we indeed need some time alone. Some 'me and only me' time like watching a movie alone, travelling solo or just spend a day alone at home. It is in these times of solitude that we can reflect on the past and plan for the future.

I admit that I rant and complains a lot sometimes. About work, about relationships and about not having enough means (aka money and time) to travel. I am starting to learn to change. Many times, we took things for granted. We failed to see what we have and how to appreciate it and we focus too much on what we want and what we think we should have.

Hmmm...I think I am in the mood to babble today. Anyway, I hope we can all learn to improve day by day. And live life to the fullest. Cheers!!

(taken at Awana Kijal-everyday is a new day...)