When you know you are drowning and you are too tired to scream for help, what else can you do?
When you want to give up but is too afraid to do so, what else can you do?
When you know you are loathing yourself for feeling like shit, what else can you do?
In times like this, I choose to be ignorant. It's foolish, but it just feel a lot better to hide it. Foolish I know but I believe one day it will all be fine.
I must learn to count my blessings and look at the things that make me happy.
I can't wait for a new year but then, everyday can be a new year to stat afresh. I don't know what I want but I know what I don't want. But yet, I have no other choice.
To my dear self - Hang in there, stay afloat in the dark and the sun will shine again.